*In Memory* of our little 'SweetPea' |
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On Fathers day (In Australia! - we have it the first sunday in september) this year, 1999 I found out i wasnt invincible and that "things that happen to other people" happen to me too! This amazingly obvious realisation hit when i miscarried what would have been our third child. |
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Conceived around the 15th of July our baby was due on April 7th. I first suspected I was pregnant when in the third week of July I had a couple of dizzy spells with heart palpitations... forcing me to lie down and get my breath. My first thought was this hasnt happened since I was pregnant with Callum. A blood test on July 27th confirmed that there was indeed a new life stirring! My doctor rang to inform me of this and Kenny and I sat for a few minutes , mildly shocked by the news before rapidly giving way to delight! We had to change a few plans to work around the expected birth but it didnt matter..we discussed alternatives happily and were soon very excited about it all. We told our parents although I was a bit reluctant... for no good reason as we had announced my pregnancy with Callum very early also. At six and a half weeks we had an ultrasound done to date the pregnancy. I was a little nervous when they stated I was only 6 weeks and changed my due date to April 12th which i knew couldnt be right... However we saw our little jellybean, and had the heartbeat pointed out to us.. there it was safe and sound and alive. I had one evening of "morning sickness" but didnt actually be sick... remembering my violent retching with Callum from very early on..I again felt twinges of anxiety. After that one episode I felt better and better , not so tired anymore, no sickness... what a dream pregnancy! Well the dream cruelly ended when I started bleeding on a saturday morning.. and all too soon it was over... On the sunday -Fathers day of all days.. the 5th of Sept - I was 9 and 1/2 weeks. I began to miscarry and a horrible ultrasound revealed that our baby had indeed died.. ironically soon after the 6 week ultrasound. I had a D&C that evening and it was finished... ***** But it doesnt end there... there is so much more to be said. We lost our baby... a precious spark of life ... something so hard for anyone who has not experienced the pain of miscarriage to understand... So I dedicate this page to the memory of that tiny life... our baby, we never got to hold you or know you as a person.. but we loved you.. you lived in our hearts and imaginations and always will Perhaps the time was wrong for you or you could not find your way to us.. |
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We have recently had Sweetpeas first 'angel-day'...
Love Mummy, Daddy, |
Also the 'help' pages are up.
These include.."what to say and
"what helps" (for the parents and their frinds and family)
and for the parents.."its ok to feel like that - you are not alone.."
Miscarriage Help/Information
For Parents who have lost their baby AND for friends and Family
New! Apply for Sweetpeas award...
for those who have a memorial site for their baby
There is also a new "Eastwing Loving Heart award" For those who provide miscarriage/infant loss support/info/memorials on their site
This Empty Arms Ring site is owned by Angie. Click for the |
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Room 1 What Not to say!' |
Room 3 What helps!' |
Room5 Your Emotions |
Room7 'Starlight Gallery' |
Room 9 Angel babies' |
Room 11 'Link Library' |
Reception 'East wing' |
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Room 2 How does it feel?' |
Room 4 What to say' |
Room 6 Causes of miscarriage |
Room 8 Submit a memorial' |
Room 10 Sweetpeas page |
Room 12 East wing Friends |
* Letter from Angie * |
Room 1 Email PALS! |
Room 3 Message board' |
Room5 News Letter |
Room7 Guest Book' |
Room 9 Support Groups *NEW* Club Pages Also CHAT ROOM! Open to all Visitors... |
Stairs to 2nd floor |
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* Explanation of rooms * |
Room 2 Light a candle' |
Room 4 Angel-baby candles' |
Room 6 Sweetpeas candles |
Room 8 Apply for my awards! |
Entry Annex * |
Annex 1 Support club Homepage |
Annex 2 Club Members' |
Annex 3 Members memorials |
Annex 4 Message Board' |
Annex 5 Yahoo club CHATROOM |
Annex 6 Members Links |